“Your eyes tell a story. A difficult story I might add. This story is a mystery I wish to unfold. The only mystery I wish to unfold. I want the feeling of your hand in mine and my fingers running through your hair. I see you with another girl whom you obviously adore. I wish that adoration was for me. You say you like the way she looks at you, but all I’ve asked for was one glance. Did you know that one glance could save a girl. Keep someone alive even? You have provided me a safe haven for over three years. A year and half of that time has given me a real place to escape to. Don’t get me wrong, the entire time you have brought me the comfort that I need, but the past year and a half have really kept me safe. When that time came crashing down I was completely lost. The structure was completely taken from me and the hole left in my heart was so visible I could not handle it. The meltdowns and panic attacks came along with all of it. The way you made me feel so vulnerable and helpless was almost unforgivable, but then I would see it. See that one picture of your smile and remember everything you mean to me. That one smile captured in that one moment brings me happiness for days. It’s been a while now. A short while. I am no longer having breakdowns over you like I had before, but there have been moments when I could feel it coming. When I could physically feel that deep pain in my chest that you cause me. I know it’s happening when my heart starts to race and I can no longer breathe. These attacks would be the first time I had ever used the words ‘he takes my breath away’ negatively.”
Hello. When and where was the Jake Bugg show? Looks like you had fun!